Those Kleenex commercials...

You know the ones, the "Kleenex Let It All Out" commercials.

I get teary eyed just watching the commercials. That sweet guy in his sweater, listening to these people open their hearts and spill the beans about whatever they've been holding in. Heck, they even show the sweet sweater guy wiping his eyes.

Anyway, I know that if I did one of those commercials...I'd be a blubbering, snotty damn mess. I hold everything in. At least until it comes exploding out when Brandon looks at me the wrong way. I suppose I need to find a better way of dealing with the stressors and hard spots in my life. I'm pretty sure that this new job has brought me to the maximum point of stress that I have ever been at in my life. It is just so demanding and never ending.

A huge bonus of my job, though...the daycare center. Man is that place wonderful. It is almost worth all the crap I go through, just to know that my daughters are getting a wonderful education early in their lives.

The bad part - I think it's having a negative effect on my health. I'm so tired, that whole fainting incident...and I don't have a follow up until April for that. I know stress can do weird things to your body, but a few weeks ago I got a phone call at work that sent my stress and anxiety level through the roof. Within minutes, I felt like I was either going to puke or pass out...right there in my office. I've GOT to find a way to deal with all of this, because changing jobs is really not an option.

Anyway, what a long and boring entry that was! Exercise is my first plan of action for de-stressing. Plus, we've got this Canadian vacation planned for the summer. If I keep my eyes on the prize, I'm thinking I'll make it through. Really, the stress level SHOULD drop...but it just doesn't seem to be happening yet. I accept prayers from any and all parties, too. Those always help!

American Idol tonight! Woot woot! David Hernandez was a stripper! Wow! It's true!
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Another new recipe tonight, as well. Last night's was actually a success! Rock on!